I have finally gotten out of a really bad prolonged situation and can't help but feel very hopeful for both myself and the other party involved. Yay! I do regret how I went about it, and feel quilty for many things, but all I can do is route that energy into bettering myself as a person so that perhaps in the future there won't be things to regret.

In case I can't land a job over here in my current town, I have plans to move to Jyväskylä, the closest large city near me. Despite being the closest, it's still quite far away and has been my only chance at intensive therapy, having made it pretty difficult so far with all the travel that would need to be involved. Here in my town psychologists come and go constantly, and there is almost never a doctor available.

I hope that when I move and pursue my engineering degree there, I will be able to do psychotherapy much easier and become better, especially without having to be in such a bad situation where I also need to manage myself for another person who can get hurt when I can barely handle myself...! I feel very apologetic for it.

I have a few commissions to finish up right now, but it's all stuff that I really enjoy working on. I was commissioned for a bunny dragon, teehee, alongside a few other things like a lovely experimental piece.